My name is Alyssa. I love being active, playing sports, spending time with family, singing, getting good grades, and listening to music. Ever since I was little, I was raised to believe that God was our one true savior. There was never a time in my life where God was forgotten about or put on the back-burner. But for some reason, I struggle to believe God even exists. I can go my whole day without even acknolodging His presence in the world. I sing worship songs at church, but my heart isn't in it. I have gone to multiple Christian concerts, but I still doubt that I should believe. I have written bible verses every day for a month, read the bible for even longer, but nothing seems to help me long-term. I think why I struggle so much is because I think, "if I can go this long without even thinking about Him, is He really that important?" I am a visual person, and I can't see God, do I doubt He's even real. When the weather changes, my family says that it's because of God, but I doubt that, because scientists have visual charts and graphs explaining why the weather changes/changed. I desire to have a relationship with God, and I want to know Him better. I plan to love Him, and grow my faith in Him, I just need to trust that He's there.